A Raw, Unflinching Look at Grief, Strength, and Starting Over

For anyone carrying grief, searching for meaning, or trying to keep going when everything has fallen apart.

When Jen Hoye lost her brother Teddy to suicide, her world shattered. In the years that followed, she turned to writing, running, humor, and unfiltered advocacy to crawl her way out of the fog. Along the way, she found purpose in the miles, power in the storytelling, and community in the people who showed up to remember and fight beside her.

This isn't a self-help book. It's a brutally honest memoir about grief, sibling loss, mental health, and the unexpected ways running helped one woman survive the unimaginable. Told with sarcasm, tenderness, and zero sugarcoating, this is a book for grief warriors, sibling loss survivors, suicide loss survivors, mental health advocates, and anyone trying to make sense of life after loss.

This intensely personal memoir might make you cry, laugh, feel seen, or finally exhale. If you've lost someone you love, if you've ever felt like a misfit in your grief, or if you're still figuring out how to carry the weight, you are not alone.